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this weekend will be de last weekend of my last holi.. it ended so fast...


this holi i have joy, fun, sadness, anger, disappointment, being busy, and full of emotions... think alot, play alot, went out alot... trying to cheer myself up with almost anything i can think of.. deep down, there is still a pinch of sadness.. i dun like this feeling..


i am still trying to search back the Happy Xiaoting she used to be... always think of happy things.. but now she is always in deep thoughts when she is alone or when no one is noticing.. this is pretty bad coz she is in deep thoughts of things in the past and questioning herself..


she knows wat she is supposed to do.. but when it comes to emotions, anything logical becomes illogical... pretty weird huh...


letting go is easier said than to carry out the actions... it really takes time.. but how long? no one can answer....