I have been doing OT for these couple of days and it seems like I have detached from the outside world. Hardly talked to anyone even my family and my boy other than my colleagues; no time to read or listen to the news.. things just revolved round work and meeting, meeting and work.. sigh.. dun like this kind of working OT life, but I guess everywhere is like that.. *shrugs* during this period, I have totally entered the world of my own.. this feeling sucks and I feel lonely.. initially already recovered from the “emo” state.. now I am slowly going to the state again.. =(

And I realize in the coming couple of months, the date “26” seems to be an auspicious date, let’s see:

1) 26 July – My secondary classmate, Joanna’s child, 1 yr old bday
2) 26 July – My cousin is holding her wedding
3) 26 July – I’m going to genting (hence I will miss my cousin’s wedding as well as joanna’s child’s birthday & the chance to meet with relatives and frens; I did not plan it such a way, all are pure coincidence, sigh..)
4) 26 Aug – my boy’s bday
5) 26 Sept – one of the days of the F1 race
6) 26 Oct – Great Eastern Women Race (still deciding whether to join or nt, weini is joining the 5km run with her mum, and weiling is joining the 10km run with her fren as well, whereas shir finds it expensive for the 10km run; so should I join??)

Egypt Postcard

my dear fren, cynthia went on holiday to Egypt a couple of wks back.. earlier on, we met up with the rest of the gers, and mentioned that she sent us a postcard each when she was there.. and she did.. "Thank you Cynthia!!!"

but the postcard arrived pretty late.. long journey post.. hee.. she was back last wk.. and i only received the postcard yesterday.. but anyway it's cool and interesting plus this is a 1st time i received a postcard from overseas de wor.. hee.. angel did mentioned she will do the same when she goes to korea, so yah, angel, dun forget hor.. i will be waiting.. hee.. thanz in advanced.. =P

2 days ago, 2nd July, was the "first anniversary" of my working life.. time passes like shutters speed x10000000....., and with just a blink of the eyes, one year has passed... what i have gained from this one year of working? frankly speaking and sad to say, not very much... but knew that things are never as simple as i initially started off as a noob (though i am still a noob now), and there are many many kinds of pple ard.. even more different kinds than in those during sch days.. wahaha.. it sounds like working life sux .. or probably this current job isn't the ideal job that i am looking for or want to do..

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and these days i am super duper emo.. probably PMS, but i realised that i am somehow suffering from "depression"... yeah i believe "depression is the word... coz i googled online and check for the symptoms of depression.. and i have experienced most of them or if not 50% of the symptoms.. my boy said that i am crazy to go googled such stuff, probably indeed i am crazy.... but if i can still "happily" typing all these sh*t, i should be doing fine, i guess.... however I have to the extent of tearing when on the bus ride home, while listening to a mixture of sad and happy songs.. how terrible..

my inner self knew about the things that are happening ard me, but i have no idea of how to handle certain stuffs, to the extent that i start to avoid.. and i hate it.. it feels horrible.. with fear, worries and sadness engulfing me... i really dunno wat will happen next, and i am scared to know the outcome, afraid the outcome will turn out worse and ugly.. and i am afraid to even make the 1st move to give it a try.. sigh.. i believe once again, i might be thinking way too much and giving myself unnecessary stress..

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